Dear Mommy

I am in Heaven now, sitting on God’s lap.
He loves me and cries with me;
for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl.
I don’t quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.
I was in a dark, yet comfortable place.
I saw I had fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing,
yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped
you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much.
One day you cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you. I couldn’t imagine
why you were so unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible
thing happened.
A very mean monster came into that warm,
comfortable place I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming,
but you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.
The monster got closer and closer as
I was screaming and screaming,
“Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me.”
Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn’t anymore.
Then the monster started ripping my arms off.
It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn’t stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.
I knew I would never see your face or hear you say
how much you love me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now I couldn’t; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror,
I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imagine the terrible things
that they had done to you.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone,
but I didn’t know the words you could understand.
And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them;
I was dead.

I felt myself rising. I was being carried by
a huge angel into a big beautiful place.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me to God and set me on His lap.
He said He loved me. Then I was happy.
I asked Him what the thing was that killed me.
He answered, “Abortion.
I am sorry, my child;
for I know how it feels.”
I don’t know what abortion is;
I guess that’s the name of the monster.
I’m writing to say that I love you and
to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live. I had the will,
but I couldn’t; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me.
It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.
I didn’t want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.
Mommy, I love you and
I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.

Please be careful.

Baby..

Note: I got it from Thu Hnin See’s blog.

8 Comments so far »

  1. Roza Krzywonos said

    am November 9 2006 @ 3:09 pm

    You site very nice. Thanks owner.

  2. Michael Sync said

    am November 9 2006 @ 3:18 pm

    Thank you so much. Roza.

  3. kira rice said

    am January 6 2007 @ 6:41 am

    i was almost givin an abortion, i am only 12 right now but you have no idea how much i understand these poems, they bring true tears to my eyes, i also love writting poems about things like this, something ive gone through you know……..well, i just wanted to say, i apreciate that people are takeing the time to stop and relize what harm and wrong it does to abortion and child abuse! 2 things i protest against proudly, thank you, so much!!!

  4. Michael Sync said

    am January 7 2007 @ 4:42 am

    Your welcome! kira.
    Thanks for visiting my blog..

  5. brittay peacha said

    am February 8 2007 @ 9:36 pm

    even thoug these poems make me cry, i will protest againts this..i am with my freind Kira, and she protests about it, she told me how bad it is..so i will help it stop!

    Brittany & Kira

  6. Michael Sync said

    am February 9 2007 @ 2:30 am

    ya.. it’s bad..

    Thanks.. Brittany & Kira

  7. Kristen and Rachel said

    am September 8 2007 @ 10:52 pm

    omg me and my friend Rachel are totlay for protesting agianst abortion and child abuse and we are TWO peopl who are totally PROUD to admidt it to anyone!!
    <3 :( love you child you created it :( <3
    Kristen AND Rachel

  8. Dakoda said

    am April 3 2008 @ 7:24 pm

    Wow that was very sad it made me cry. I will never give my baby up that im having soon even though it was by abusive guy. This poem really made me cry :(

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